Struggling with anxiety, doubt, worry, stress, life in general? Well I am right there with you. I would like to say that I am rising above my anxiety and stress right now, but I am not. I would like to say that I am wholly trusting and relying on God right now, but I am not. I would like to tell you that I am past these feelings of loneliness and vulnerability, but some days it just creeps up on me and I feel stuck. Today is one of those days. The bombing at the Boston marathon yesterday was way too close to home. It makes me long for heaven and Jesus' swift return, but I know that as close as we are to that day, God is not finished with us here on earth. There is still work to be done and I believe that yesterday made that more than abundantly clear. People are lost, hopeless, helpless and we, as Christians, have the answer-Jesus.
But how can I be a witness and a light to someone when I am feeling this way right now? Well, I did not have the answer a few hours ago, but in the middle of this post I had to go to my Lyme specialist appointment. In the car, God nudged me to turn on my iPod and listen to Chris Tomlin's Burning Lights album. If you have listened to this album at all, then you know that my God is for us (who can be against us?), He is the God of angel armies, He is sovereign, He is a God of wonders, He alone can satisfy our souls and wake us up-not only as individuals, but as a country. During that 20 minute car ride, God took away my anxiety, my doubt, my worry, my stress, my loneliness and gave me a peace that is beyond all understanding. My ride turned into a worship session with God because I have been promised that GREATER is He who is in me, than he who is in this world (1 John 4:4). That does not mean that I will not feel like this tomorrow, in the days and weeks to come, but I can surrender each day to God and cast my anxieties on Him, because He cares for me (1 Peter 5:7).
My prayer today is that I will shine God's light on those around me. I pray that I can be bolder in my witness, that God will give me the words to say when the opportunities arise in the days ahead and that, we, as Christians, can become fishers of men and share the AMAZING news of John 3:16. This can only be done through the power of prayer. So I need your prayers and if you need prayer, please let me know so I can lift you up to our Heavenly Father who is always right by our side.
"You keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you,
because he trusts in you." ~Isaiah 26:3
Linking with Titus 2 Tuesday, Monday Musings